danielle08

Today was awesome! I ate well, and got slightly under my caloric limit, I read a little, I exercised, I meditated… and I just feel wonderful.

After a slow past couple of weeks, I finally got the scale moving with 4 pounds this week!!

Today, me and my friends went out for lunch after school, and we went to chili’s. Ok, let me tell you something, the OLD me could and would have done… I could have easily eaten my fair share of the bottomless tortilla chips, had about 4 refills of dr.p, eaten a whole plate full of chicken crispers, with plenty of greasy fries… oh, and me and my friends would have definitely shared a dessert.

Well, that was the OLD me… what I do now is much different. Today I ordered a water, and I did not eat any of the chips that my friends ordered, because I know myself, and once I start, I can’t stop… so we just talked, and they ate their chips, and I really had no desire to touch the greasy little things. Then I ordered the guiltless grilled chicken sandwich. OMG, that was amazing!! it was on a wheat bun, and came with a side of beans and broccoli. I ate it at a slow pace, and drank lots of water, and before I knew it(and only 3/4 the way through the sandwich) I was full! The whole meal was only 490 calories, which those of you know- anything under 500 is great for eating out. Heck, anything under 700 while eating out is good anymore!

Anyway, after that, I went to Barnes and Noble, sat in a comfy chair and read for about half an hour. Then me and my dad did a 4 mile hike. I don’t know what is so different about hiking than any other exercise, but it is so wonderful!

After hiking, I went to my room, and meditated for about 10 minutes, and it just takes all the stress and every worry out of your mind. It’s amazing!

Wow, today was such a good day!!

I’ve began to notice one very strange thing.  I, like many on a diet, are calorie cutting/counting, and when I eat meals, especially dinner, I feel like I am cheating on my diet.

 I know that the food I am eating is good for me, and that I should feel proud that I have the ability to make good choices for myself, but I can’t help but feeling guilty after I have eaten… anything.

 Has this happened to anyone else that is cutting/counting calories? I almost feel the urge to throw up, but I have never and would NEVER EVER do that. I know how terrible it is, and have seen friends (skinny friends) who have battled with it, so I know not to get myself into such a terrible situation.

Idk, it’s just that everytime I eat, I feel guilty. 

omg, ok, so my sister is DEFINATELY in the kitchen baking a CAKE!!! doesn’t she know that I have little to no will power when it comes to easy to grab sweets?? wow, I just want to kick her little butt right now! we are going to have a cake sitting around the house for a few days now, and me and my dad are trying to lose weight! this is some evil temptation! I’ll try my best to stay away from this, because I know that even 1 piece has the potential to ruin a whole days’ effort…and we all no that you can’t have just one! oh well, I guess I’ll just have to settle for some carrot sticks whenever I am wanting a piece of this cake!

Dieting sucks sometimes!