danielle08

yep, got a blue star. That means 50 pounds, which is quite awesome I must say.

So now I’m being a dork and listening to When the stars go blue by Tim McGraw!

Overall since june 2007, I’ve lost 72 pounds, and I guess that reminds me of another song; you don’t really know what you got till it’s gone. It’s weird how I was just able to live my life at a ridiculously dangerous weight of 308 and just tell myself, oh it’s not really your fault, both your parents are obese, so you didn’t really have a choice in the matter. But boy was I wrong! Now only 1 year later, I’m only 9 pounds from not being obese! That’s pretty unreal!

Today was pretty good. I went to IHOP, and ate quite a bit (Sorry that I love food so much, breakfast especially) But I went to the gym about an hour after that and burned 700 cals. on the treadmill to compensate for the big breakfast. Now I’m gunna pick my little sister up and hang out at barnes and noble, because it’s a good environment for writing songs (which is the latest thing we’re trying).

Good luck to everyone with your weight loss!

This year, Torrid is having one amazing plus size model search. The finalists will get a 3 day all expenses paid stay in California at their big pent house with the rest of the finalists, and they will be doing mini webisodes on the entire process. Over the 3 days they will also have celebrity guests in to help pick the winner ( and there will only be 1 winner this year.) You can enter in store (if there is a Torrid near you) July 18th-20th, or by mail the 21st-31st. You have to have an 8×10 photo of you, and you can get the application online at Torrid.com. I work at Torrid, so my manager said I can’t apply (at least in store, you better believe I’ll be sending an app by mail regardless ;)) So spread the word, even if you don’t want to apply, tell your friends who might have plus size modeling dreams. Oh, by the way, the winner will also get modeling assignments with the company AND a cash prize!

If you have any questions, please let me know. I don’t have a ton of info on the event, but I might be able to answer some of your questions.

Good luck!

yep, that’s right, I reached my mini goal. It feels good seeing that on the scale, but to be honest, it almost doesn’t feel like it’s real! I mean, when I look in the mirror, I don’t see it like everyone else does…? I guess it’s because I see myself everyday, so I’m used to the weight loss. Oh well, now my new mini goal is 227, and reaching that weight would mean that I would no longer be obese!!! that’s pretty freaking awesome!

Overall, I am just so happy that I am finally in control of my life and my health. Oh, and I soo can’t wait for prom and senior trip… I’m going to look Steeeeammy Hot! (Anyone who watches biggest loser knows what I mean!) ;))

Today was awesome! I ate well, and got slightly under my caloric limit, I read a little, I exercised, I meditated… and I just feel wonderful.

After a slow past couple of weeks, I finally got the scale moving with 4 pounds this week!!

Today, me and my friends went out for lunch after school, and we went to chili’s. Ok, let me tell you something, the OLD me could and would have done… I could have easily eaten my fair share of the bottomless tortilla chips, had about 4 refills of dr.p, eaten a whole plate full of chicken crispers, with plenty of greasy fries… oh, and me and my friends would have definitely shared a dessert.

Well, that was the OLD me… what I do now is much different. Today I ordered a water, and I did not eat any of the chips that my friends ordered, because I know myself, and once I start, I can’t stop… so we just talked, and they ate their chips, and I really had no desire to touch the greasy little things. Then I ordered the guiltless grilled chicken sandwich. OMG, that was amazing!! it was on a wheat bun, and came with a side of beans and broccoli. I ate it at a slow pace, and drank lots of water, and before I knew it(and only 3/4 the way through the sandwich) I was full! The whole meal was only 490 calories, which those of you know- anything under 500 is great for eating out. Heck, anything under 700 while eating out is good anymore!

Anyway, after that, I went to Barnes and Noble, sat in a comfy chair and read for about half an hour. Then me and my dad did a 4 mile hike. I don’t know what is so different about hiking than any other exercise, but it is so wonderful!

After hiking, I went to my room, and meditated for about 10 minutes, and it just takes all the stress and every worry out of your mind. It’s amazing!

Wow, today was such a good day!!

I’ve began to notice one very strange thing.  I, like many on a diet, are calorie cutting/counting, and when I eat meals, especially dinner, I feel like I am cheating on my diet.

 I know that the food I am eating is good for me, and that I should feel proud that I have the ability to make good choices for myself, but I can’t help but feeling guilty after I have eaten… anything.

 Has this happened to anyone else that is cutting/counting calories? I almost feel the urge to throw up, but I have never and would NEVER EVER do that. I know how terrible it is, and have seen friends (skinny friends) who have battled with it, so I know not to get myself into such a terrible situation.

Idk, it’s just that everytime I eat, I feel guilty. 

omg, ok, so my sister is DEFINATELY in the kitchen baking a CAKE!!! doesn’t she know that I have little to no will power when it comes to easy to grab sweets?? wow, I just want to kick her little butt right now! we are going to have a cake sitting around the house for a few days now, and me and my dad are trying to lose weight! this is some evil temptation! I’ll try my best to stay away from this, because I know that even 1 piece has the potential to ruin a whole days’ effort…and we all no that you can’t have just one! oh well, I guess I’ll just have to settle for some carrot sticks whenever I am wanting a piece of this cake!

Dieting sucks sometimes!